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[I think, therefore I am]

 

 

It’s a famous quote, but at this moment, I wanted to get rid of my thoughts and disappear.

 

‘How did this happen?’

 

I dropped with my crossed arms and bowed my head.

All of this happened when I read a book.

in the era of 1 million unemployed young people, i was also an ordinary job seeker who belonged to that category.
But my future was more gloomy than ordinary people.

 Because I was an orphan and a high school graduate.

It was like picking stars in the sky to get an ordinary job for myself, who had no solid background or a decent academic background.

luckily, I got a job at a small company.

The salary was not high, but I was still a full-time worker with all four major insurances policies.
The moment I thought I finally found stability because the working hours were just right But one day, The company went bankrupt.
To be more precise, the CEO’s partner ran away with all the company funds.

Thanks to that, the company went bankrupt and I was back on the streets again.

I couldn’t let the news go to the orphanage.
Because I was like the head of that orphanage where it was difficult to make a living.

In fact, as an adult, I was no longer belonging to the orphanage.

I could go out and live alone, but I couldn’t turn a blind eye to the children in that dangerous orphanage, that place’s situation is like jeopardy.
since that place was just like my home.

So, I desperately hid my unemployment and go out at a certain time to look for a new job.

I wandered from place to place to find a job.

However, regardless of my efforts, the orphanage was closed and the children were scattered.

Since the mouths to feed had decreased, I was relieved, but for some reason, my feelings at the time were lost and helpless.

I think it was The sense of guilt for not being able to keep them bothered me.

I wandered around the streets without working.
There was no reason to make money.

At that time, there was the 24 hours comic book store where I use to spend my time to my pass my time.
I wasn’t bored because I could satisfy both meals and sleep with a small amount of money and had a lot of reading.

I sat there and ate read all day long.

 Then, there was this was one novel that caught my eye when I was sick of comic books.
It was a romance fantasy novel.
It was an unfamiliar genre to me, but I enjoyed reading it.

The title of the book was ” the Indelible Scar”.

Unlike the the abstract title, the content was familiar.
So, it was a typical Cliché type of novel.

Male lead and female lead were from the same orphanage, and the head of that orphanage was tremendously evil.
Not only was it bullying, abusing but also made children take part in crimes.

Title “the Indelible Scar” refers to the scar on the thigh of the female lead, which was created by the head of the orphanage.

ironically, this scar was made for the plot so that male lead, who had been away for a long time from female lead, to recognize her.

 And male lead, who rebelled and became emperor, finds the head of a orphanage who was working in a mine to take revenge for his childhood.

In the end, male lead dragged head of the orphanage to the palace and torn her into pieces in front of the female lead.

When the head of the orphanage dies cruelly, i frowned at the cruel description, it might not look so cruel , but it was clearly close to brutal.

The story afterwards is the love story between male lead and female, who were reunited affectionately.

That was the whole book I knew.

 

‘I’m doomed.’

 

 Undoubtedly, It was a very enjoyable Book.

Is it because I read it?

 

“Why I did end up becoming the head of the orphanage?”

 

I couldn’t remember the last memory in my mind.
I ran out of money and left that shop, but nothing came to my mind after that.

 

‘I died screaming on the street?’

 

 if I knew I was about to die, I would have choose being lonely or starving to death.

Since I lost my goal and didn’t work properly, I was expecting that my end would not be so good anyway, but I didn’t know I would suddenly end up screaming to death.

 

‘Should I say that I’m glad I died without any pain?’

 

I was thankful for that.
Because I didn’t wanted to feel pain.

‘Now what’s the point? I’m destined to be torn to pieces by the male lead.’

I am sad.

 possing a character in a book.
now, what’s the big deal about being a character in a book that is pretty much almost dead?

But I am not this person who will die cruelly in the future! And besides I already i died one time I don’t want to again!

 

‘I can’t die like the original story in the book.’

 

I thought about what to do in the future.

At that moment, I heard a bell announcing that it was noon-12 pm.

I got up from my seat.

It was time for kids to eat.