The Tyrant Wants To Live Honestly

After all, the nanny’s wish was nothing but wind.

As I expected, Carnan never came to visit me.

Since then, I’ve only met Carnan a few times from a distance and just glanced at him.

Living in the same imperial palace, and as I grew up, my scope of action expanded, and I accidentally encountered overlapping routes.

It was more insignificant than walking through the garden and meeting a butterfly, and there was no reason to write it down in a diary or to keep it in memory.

I was alone in the Conberta Palace, the most cornered palace in the Imperial Palace.

So I turned eight.

‘If it were the same as before, I would have already been punished several times by Carnan.’

It reminded me of the days when I was punished for screaming at a whale for trying to show me a better side than Ray.

I was very sad too.
Needlessly looking forward to being alone, hurting my heart alone, and crying alone again.

I thought again that knowing the future is a very good thing.
If I had not known the future in this lifetime, I would have clung to Carnan again.

It must have made me hate to see myself, who was still unlovable by pretending to be ugly.

‘Living a good life is…It doesn’t do anything.’

The moment you try to do something, you will be hated and angry.

So I will kill Rey again, and lose the man I loved… 

Just when I was thinking that a stupid voice called me from afar.

“Dorodorothea!”

That voice I hate.

‘Annoying!’

Carnan took it off easily, but I don’t know why he’s so obsessed with me.

“Nanny, say I am not here.”

I escaped the ray and hid in the thick forest.

As soon as I could hide, Ray entered the Conberta Palace garden.
That was close.

“Nanny! Where is Dorothea?”

“I don’t know, Where did she go?”

The nanny politely pretended not to know as I asked.

Judging by the way she spoke, she seemed to know that I was even playing hide and seek with Ray.

“Maybe Dorothea… she is upset because I don’t come often, is she?

“Now Way!”

‘Yeah, no way.
Why would I get upset when you’re not coming? That’s what I like.’

I shook my head and thought about Ray’s absurd reasoning.

Ray has recently been recognized for his qualifications to succeed to the throne and has been busy preparing for the crown prince’s ceremonial ceremonies to be held in a few days.

So it was very comfortable and nice.

“I was going to show her how to deal with the spirit of light.”

Ray muttered.

spirit of light.
It was the qualification of Milanaire and the qualification of the emperor.

A legend that has been passed down from the two spirits who founded the Empire Ubera, Milanaire and Fried.

A long time ago, the elemental master Milanaire borrowed power from the light spirit to make the sunrise, and the elemental master Fried summoned the dark spirit to call into the night.

When Milanaire gave life, Fried gave them rest, and when Milanaire illuminated the world with warm light, Fried gave them a shade to rest from the light and heat.

Thus, the world here, the Empire Ubera, was created.

The descendants of that elemental priest, Milanaire, are the Imperial family.

The descendants of the elemental priest Fried are the Grand Duke Fried family.

The two families were the great pillars that supported the empire.

But that was a long time ago.

‘I’ve never even summoned a spirit of light.’

Over the generations, the bond between the two families and the spirits gradually faded.

Milanaire’s power, which had made the sunrise, has weakened infinitely, and now it has reached the point of illuminating only a small fire.

In addition, some descendants who could not handle spirits at all began to be born.

One of them was Dorothea Milanaire.

A child who has not inherited the strength and qualities of Milanaire.

It was a long-standing tradition of the Empire that only those who could wield spirits were entitled to become emperors, and I, Dorothea, was completely excluded from that tradition.

On the other hand, Ray, who was able to summon spirits from an early age, gradually became able to properly use that power and was finally recognized as a Crown Prince by the emperor.

That gave me one more reason why people wouldn’t love me.

Someday I will also deal with the Spirit of Light, and this hope had already been abandoned before my return.

I never summoned a spirit until I died.
So I was even more jealous of Ray.
Spirit of light, what is that?

In ancient times, Milanaires made the sunrise with the spirit of light and made life grow, but can they be used as lamps to illuminate dark night roads? Would it be useful for rummaging through an underground warehouse?

A trivial firefly that barely maintains its authority by relying on the thin story of the past.

I could not acknowledge the authority of that light.

Even Rey, who stood on top of me with that frivolous authority, could not be recognized.

So I decided to pick up a knife.
To usurp the authority of the spirits in the world.

I declared with a bloodstained sword that I would personally ascend to the throne, end the era of mythology and open the era of humans.

But in the end, it failed.

Unable to deal with spirits, I was executed in the name of a tyrant within a few years of taking power.

Perhaps it is true that the spirit decides the emperor.
My humble and miserable end may be the punishment that the great legend inflicted on me for arrogance.

“Nanny, do you really know where Dorothy went? My friend came and I tried to introduce him.”

As I crouched down in the grass to restore the past, I heard Ray’s voice right near the grass.

Friend? If he were to call Him a friend, she would be a child the same age as Ray, but if I met him, he would just be crazy.

I didn’t want to see the spirits I couldn’t handle, nor Rey’s stupid friends, so I decided to run away from this place altogether.

“Dorodorothea~”

An unexpected hide-and-seek began, and I crept away to avoid Rey’s eyes.
The good thing about being young was that it was small and easy to hide.

It hurt from scratching the tender skin on the branches of the bush, but it was much better than playing with Ray.
Carefully moving through the bushes, I was finally able to get out of the garden.

‘I’m sorry, nanny.
Ray, please.
I should go up to my room and take a nap.’

I tried to run up to the room with my light feet.
By the way.

Bug-

I was only concerned about getting caught by Ray, but I bumped into a black object protruding from the corner and hit the buttocks.

“Ouch….”

Who else is in my place other than the nanny?

Both servants come to this place only when they need to manage the palace.

“Sorry.
Are you okay?”

A hand clasped in front of my fallen face.

With white and pretty, but small hands for an adult, I raised my head and looked at the person I bumped into.

And I couldn’t hold his hand and froze.

“Are you seriously hurt?”

Beautiful red eyes looking at me.
A pitch-black hair.

“Theon.”

As if instinctively, he opened his eyes as if surprised for a moment by the name that flowed from the tip of my lips, and then smiled.

Every little change stuck in my eye and sparkled.

“Do you know my name?”

A soft voice towards me.

He’s still young, but nevertheless, that voice I haven’t heard in a long time.

“Why are you here…”

I thought I should run away from him, but my body wouldn’t listen.

My heart was beating louder than ever, and I was only running toward Theon.

Theon Fried.
Someone who let me know how my heart beats.

Intense red eyes contrasted with classy-looking dark hair.

Unlike his intelligent eyes, he has a solid body that seems to be able to run in the field all day.

But what shook my heart more than that?

‘Nice to meet you.
Princess Dorothea Milanaire.’

His voice was polite and gentle.

Fried, who thinks of silence as a virtue, did not talk much like a human being, and he was a person who shined softly like the moon that illuminates the dark night.

And he still shone beautifully in front of me.

“ah…! I Really sorry.
It hurt a lot.”

He knelt next to me with a slightly bewildered look on his face.

His white handkerchief gently wiped my cheek.

It was then that I realized that I was crying.

Tears I didn’t know were dripping down and wet my face.

“The clothes are very dirty.
Can you get up?”

Theon gently brushed off my skirt, which was covered with dirt and grass, as if worried.

At his kind words, I collapsed 

I shut my lips tightly to hold back the tears, but emotions slipped through the gap.

I was saddened and hurt so badly.
But at the same time, it was filled with joy.

“Theon…Theon…”

I was afraid to meet him, so I tried to forget about him and live.
But at the same time, I felt like I was going crazy because I wanted to see him so much.

My love and my husband…He abandoned me and committed suicide.

‘Remember that.
Your greed has killed me.’

His last words before he died were anger and resentment towards me.

After leaving like that, he was alive so beautifully here in front of me now.

I ended up holding on to his collar and voicing my intense longing.
I knew he would think of me as strange, but I thought I would die if I didn’t say it.

“I miss you…”

You left me, I became a tyrant and I was executed, and I returned and painted your face for a very long time until now.

Theon gently wiped the tears from my cheeks with his hand, even though he didn’t understand what I meant.

Why are you so warm now?

You never gave me a glance.
You didn’t even hold the hand I reached out.

How many people know that the great tyrant, Dorothea Milanaire, has never actually kissed her husband?

“Hey…Don’t cry.”

Theon mumbled strange words and hugged me as if to soothe my crying and patted my back.

His warm arms and soft arms wrapped around me.

‘Oh, Theon, please…’

It was the first time.
I am in his arms.
The warmth made me cry louder like a child.

“uh…uh..”

Just because he was alive, I felt like I had fulfilled my duty in this life.
He may be the reason I returned…

“Dorothea!”

Then a bright voice was heard from afar.
Ray, running from the garden, stopped and looked at me and Theon in turn, then frowned.

“Theon, did you make Dorothea cry?”

Ray glared at Theon with uncomfortably cold eyes.